Restlessness

This entire weekend I've been feeling what I call restless. I either keep thinking, or I want to do something, or I want something to happen. This time I cannot blame it on the full moon b/c I doubt there is one. I was at Mass today and my favorite priest was holding the Mass, yet I couldn't even pay full attention. I got mad at myself for that. But honestly, in Church I kept thinking about how I miss my Grandma. I really want her to be here. I was alone all weekend and times like that I would love to drive up to Greenwich, Connecticut to spend the weekend there. I wish she could still be alive. I know she's in a better place, but I'm just being selfish. I miss her cooking, her voice, her smiles, her cooking, her smell, her hands, her cooking, her hugs, her laugh, her gifts, her face, her presence. So before I starting getting emotional (oops.. too late), I will change the subject. Then I was also thinking about my vacation. I think Jordan won't be traveling w/ me b/c he will take care of his dad. I on the other hand will travel and will either bring my parents or bring Agatha (college roomie) w/ me. It would be a good idea to go w/ my parents considering they only have two months left before they move to Philippines for good, and you never know what may happen in life. So spending a vacation in Europe w/ them sounds good. That was Jordan's idea =). Now I just have to speak to the parents this Wednesday (they're coming back!) and then put in my vacation time at work, then finally book the flight. Let's hope it goes that smoothly.

I've been noticing that I'm doing last minute Christmas shopping, and its for Jordan. Surprisingly, he's hard to shop for. He wanted sneakers, but I've been hearing from friends and family not to get your significant other shoes b/c its superstitution he/she will walk out of your life. I've heard that before, but I don't believe that b/c Jordan bought me shoes awhile ago and I'm still here. =) So I jokingly asked him if he was going to walk out of my life if I bought him sneakers. He said no b/c I'm his stinky. =) But change of plans anyway, no sneakers. I'm going to take a look at NBA.com ;) I still have to shop for my parents, but I was waiting til they got back so I could actually ask them what they wanted, since they already have everything.

Saturday, I did an unplanned, spontaneous thing (it's that whole restlessness I was talking about . hehe) and went to visit Agatha in New Jersey. She lives in Palisades, NJ -- if I remember correctly. I actually like the drive down there b/c I pass the East side, get a view of Yankee Stadium, and go through the GWB. I just blasted music and it was pretty relaxing -- just me, the music, and my thoughts. I ended up falling more in love w/ New York City while driving through the QueensBoro Bridge and FDR. We went to Garden City Mall (I think that's the name) in Paramus (I think that's the town -- can you tell I'm not a Jersey girl). I passed by Fort Lee. It's funny how for some time I thought Fort Lee was in Brooklyn b/c it reminded me of Fort Hamilton (Naval base I go to) which is in BK. Turns out Fort Lee is in N.J. -- good job, Jam. So anyway, Aggie and I had our traditional Cheesecake Factory meals, rolled out of the restaurant, and bonded the best way we knew how -- Shopping! hehe. Well, she more damage than me. I was extremely good.

So far, my days have been busy, and my nights have been quiet. I'm not sure if that is something I like, but I am taking advantage of the quiet nights and doing some of the things that need to get done. I'm sorta getting ready for my parents arrival this Wednesday. I heard my mom got my Christmas gift in Thailand, when she went there w/ my brother. Wonder what it is...

I am one more pound away from my goal weight. I'm wearing this silk green dress for Karen's wedding/Brother's bday dinner, and I wanted to make sure I look better it in than when I wore it on my graduation. I was thinking about buying a new dress, but there is nothing out in the stores that I'm crazy about. And since I only wore this green dress once, I'll wear it again, but this time, changing the accessories and shoes. With the price I paid for it, I better wear it more than once!

Current song I'm obsessing over: Ashanti's "Only U"