Courtesy of Aggie's camera, here are the pics from my early bday celebration @ Maru in Ktown: click here for pics
Thank you soooo much, Kay & Aggie! You always make sure I have fun on my birthday (no matter how early/late)!! I'm so grateful for SBU b/c we walked away with an awesome friendship. Can't wait til next time!
10.31.2007
Not meant for the dark
The comment below (in green) is not meant to be kept in the dark. So I copied it from the comments section of one of my posts and gave it its own post. It's meant for people, especially people like me, to read, absorb, and hopefully reflect on it. It was posted by one of the few people I admire and I turn to in times of joy, frustration, anger, and sometimes (unfortunately) plain 'ol desperation. I share my love and my sorrows with this boy, my family He lets me be me and doesn't try to change me, only improve what's good and acknowledge what is not so good so that I am not blind and learn from it instead of rot from it. I LOVE YOU!
Question to Fais: would you rather go back to our Super NES TMNT years or keep growing?? Those nintendo controllers in that attic room w/ pink carpeting are looking quite good right now =/
I want to change my blog name from "Thoughts" to "Naked". Because sometimes I feel like the only way I know how to write is from my heart. And from my heart I bare a lot with words (and sometimes to total strangers considering this blog in on the internet, so out there!), unconcealed and real.
Happy Halloween you goons!! :-]
With Love, From Love:
"...but ive learned (speakin for myself) that the only way you can be yourself is to accept the negative and the positive. and the best medicine when your feelin down is to share the love you have with someone else..
"We are all a connected whole, interrelated, one organism. Hence it can be said, as a conclusion: Become richer in every dimension.
Be creative, be loving, be meditative, and share. And the more you share, the more existence will shower on you flowers of blissfulness and ecstasy.
The only good is to be in a position of oneness, so that you are not in a constant conflict within yourself -- because that conflict destroys you, leaves no energy to be shared.
When you are one, the energy becomes so much that you become almost like a rain cloud, so full of rain that it wants to shower somewhere or other.
Sharing is the most precious religious experience. sharing is good"
Question to Fais: would you rather go back to our Super NES TMNT years or keep growing?? Those nintendo controllers in that attic room w/ pink carpeting are looking quite good right now =/
I want to change my blog name from "Thoughts" to "Naked". Because sometimes I feel like the only way I know how to write is from my heart. And from my heart I bare a lot with words (and sometimes to total strangers considering this blog in on the internet, so out there!), unconcealed and real.
Happy Halloween you goons!! :-]
With Love, From Love:
"...but ive learned (speakin for myself) that the only way you can be yourself is to accept the negative and the positive. and the best medicine when your feelin down is to share the love you have with someone else..
"We are all a connected whole, interrelated, one organism. Hence it can be said, as a conclusion: Become richer in every dimension.
Be creative, be loving, be meditative, and share. And the more you share, the more existence will shower on you flowers of blissfulness and ecstasy.
The only good is to be in a position of oneness, so that you are not in a constant conflict within yourself -- because that conflict destroys you, leaves no energy to be shared.
When you are one, the energy becomes so much that you become almost like a rain cloud, so full of rain that it wants to shower somewhere or other.
Sharing is the most precious religious experience. sharing is good"
Contender
This self-improvement thing: when I feel like I've taken two steps forward, I find myself taking the same 2 steps back and I'm back to sqaure one. So this is what it feels like for a fighter in the ring -- you get knocked down but as long as you get right back up to fight again it is what separates you from the good fighters and the ones that just stay knocked down. Dad, I hope you are right... And most of all, I hope I didn't lose too much of myself...
This growing up crap doesn't end at 18 or 21. It's the one thing that is constant... I guess.
Conversation piece I had with a coworker: No matter what crazy environment you're thrown into, as long as your morals/values stay intact then you can survive and YOU WILL BE ALRIGHT.
This growing up crap doesn't end at 18 or 21. It's the one thing that is constant... I guess.
Conversation piece I had with a coworker: No matter what crazy environment you're thrown into, as long as your morals/values stay intact then you can survive and YOU WILL BE ALRIGHT.
10.29.2007
office blogs part ?
The email chain is ALL about food...
______________________________
From: Jamlen
Sent: Monday, October 29, 2007 12:54 PM
To: Agatha
Sesame ginger dressing is good for the first few bites, but then after, its just too much… also there’s the fact I put too much dressing.
What r the name of those baked unsalted pita chips u introduced me to?_____________________________
From: Agatha
Sent: Monday, October 29, 2007 12:56 PM
To: Jamlen
Um… Rita's? I think it was someone's name… I can't remember tho… I'll prod see it in the café so I'll let you know. Haha you addict! Omg I love ginger dressing!
_____________________________From: Jamlen
Sent: Monday, October 29, 2007 12:57 PM
To: Agatha
Yeah I should’ve put the dressing on lighter so it wasn’t so overwhelming. This specific kind was too sweet towards the end.
Btw, I see a pattern, everytime I eat salad (or maybe their salad?) I get this unsettling weird empty/hungry feeling in my stomach. The one I mentioned before. I mean I’m full but my stomach feels empty!!
_____________________________
From: Agatha
Sent: Monday, October 29, 2007 2:07 PM
To: Jamlen
It could just be your brain telling you that cause you know you had a salad.
Maybe try getting extra chicken that way your mind thinks that you got extra protein so you'll feel more satisfied
_____________________________
From: Jamlen
Sent: Monday, October 29, 2007 2:12 PM
To: Agatha
Haha I already put so much chicken. I ask for extra chicken all the time b/c its no charge. And some days when they say I have one more ingredient I can add, I still stay chicken haha.. and I add chick peas for MORE protein.
_____________________________
From: Agatha
Sent: Monday, October 29, 2007 2:17 PM
To: Jamlen
Uh… oh… okay woman you're on your own then…. Haha
_____________________________
From: Jamlen
Sent: Monday, October 29, 2007 2:21 PM
To: Agatha
I went to go pick up a print job and next to the printer were the donuts. There was one left and I just looked around, contemplated that its so bad, and I swiped it and inhaled it while walking back to my desk b4 anyone could see me. That makes it 3!!! grrr
_____________________________
From: Agatha
Sent: Monday, October 29, 2007 2:22 PM
To: Jamlen
LOL!!!!!!!!!haha
Hillarious!
10.23.2007
Love to Love
Yo man, what's up w/ me… lately, I've been in the mood to share anything and everything going through my head w/ the world. Right now I almost bit, no chewed, my lip off. I guess that turkey sandwich brought out the savage in me =P
Let's see .. What else…
Remember I told you I wanted to do some self-improvement? Well, it’s a continued effort. Everyday I'm giving myself silent pep talks or prayers in my head that I am capable of feeling this or that (all positive, of course). It's not an overnight change, but if my heart and mind are in the right places and in sync, then I can do it…
Sometimes I feel like I wanna be that person who changes something or makes an impact in the world… I WANNA DO SO MUCH!
I just put on my earphones and tuned into Alicia Key's No One while I'm working. Everyone is in this quiet environment in their cubicles and I'm just vibin and moving my upper body w/ the beat.. Wonder if anyone sees me and notices. You'll get that a lot -- collegues tuning out to their iPod music to concentrate better or take out the redundancy of whatever it is they're doing. What's cool about my job is that it gives you both worlds of interacting with others or just being to yourself and not having to talk to anyone for the whole day, but still be productive in that way (sometimes, I get into those moods since I am an introvert/anti-social beeatch).
NO MATTER WHAT… its an AWESOME feeling to know Love grew out of a (Best) Friendship… even if you experience it just once. See man! It's this song! It has it hynotizing powers in its own way… makes me love the world and shiet. Haha! Hey, ain't nothing wrong that.. Love to love.
10.22.2007
Burst
I don't know why I named this post "burst". It was the first word that came into mind when a flood of thoughts entered my mind at the same time. My birthday is approaching and I'm getting older, hopefully wiser, but there's still so much I have to learn about myself... so much. Random people ask me random questions and it always stirs something in me. There are those people in your life that teach you something about yourself. Sometimes these are people who don't even know you or what you are feeling but a word, a conversation, a phrase will shift something in your conscience. For me, its been a theme of self-improvement. There's so much I need to learn and do FOR MYSELF. Sometimes it gets kinda frustrating b/c the daily routine of life makes you feel like you are standing still. I'm glad I still have my faith to turn to and rely on. It must be my very own angel who only became my angel when I was 12. Most of all, right now, I need to learn that if things don't go as planned or as expected, I need NOT to freak out and somehow find the purpose or lesson/blessing in disguise.
Damn, second post in a row... those damn stars are aligned for me to pour out my soul hehe..
Damn, second post in a row... those damn stars are aligned for me to pour out my soul hehe..
AKFC
... stands for Alicia Keys Fan Club, and that's the site I'm currently reading. I FREAKIN love her. I mean I always thought she was suuuuper duuper talented and beautiful, but the "No One" video did it for me. Don't ask me how (other than I found her even more beautiful, no.. gorgeous!), but it's on constant repeat in a playlist of its own. And guess what.. she has a blog, too! Ha! I don't know what it is, what force or attraction that moves you when you hear music or obtain this newfound respect/love/obsession with a person who has such a powerful influence such as music or movies or some public act of goodness/weirdness/uniqueness. I think I've gone into semi-obsession mode only less than a handful of times and research biographies of bands, celebrities, musicians, or everyday individuals who have moved me somehow someway. Or maybe its my admiration for those who MAKE IT HAPPEN. They set themselves to do something and THEY'RE DOING IT or in the process of completing that thought, dream.
I got it! I know what contributes to me going into this research mode... it's when someone who's life is so public and out there takes a minute or two and shares something private or intimate about themselves. Its not about me being nosey, its about me realizing that these people are regular ppl who have emotions, feelings, intimacy, and a private life that they only give the public sneak peaks. "Non famous people" do it everyday -- they're called blogs. The world doesn't know me, but those who come across my blog, my thoughts get a taste of my private life, family, friends, ... thoughts. Exactly.
Besides, when you can relate to someone famous who tries more than the average person to keep his/her life private, its kinda cool.. Check it:
She rocks. Oh and her Album "As I am" comes on on my birthday... birthday gift ideas anyone?? lol. on that note, I'll leave you with the link to her youtube video that got me: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ktUSIJEiOug
I got it! I know what contributes to me going into this research mode... it's when someone who's life is so public and out there takes a minute or two and shares something private or intimate about themselves. Its not about me being nosey, its about me realizing that these people are regular ppl who have emotions, feelings, intimacy, and a private life that they only give the public sneak peaks. "Non famous people" do it everyday -- they're called blogs. The world doesn't know me, but those who come across my blog, my thoughts get a taste of my private life, family, friends, ... thoughts. Exactly.
Besides, when you can relate to someone famous who tries more than the average person to keep his/her life private, its kinda cool.. Check it:
"Well. Well ... You know, I have to say, the person I'm with is really special," Keys said after smiling playfully. "And I'm lucky because when I go out with friends to parties, I say to myself, 'Self, what in the hell would you do if you didn't have somebody who loved you?' I mean, really. I look at these guys and it's like, 'Who are you? What do you even think about and what are you representing? Do you even know me? And do you want to know me or ... ?' It's scary. And I think about how uncomfortable I would feel trying to find love among so much falseness. So I feel very, very, very blessed to have someone so special to me. Someone who I know cares about me. That's what it's about. I'm pretty lucky."
Jane's writer responded, "I'm taking that as a yes."
This doesn't necessarily mean Keys is raring to get married — ... she explained that she doesn't want a husband or a baby before she's 30. "I want to live my life," Keys said. "I want to give myself the opportunity to grow as a woman and as someone creative."... After accomplishing all these and other goals, "I'll be ready to start a family. When I'm 35."
http://www.vh1.com/news
10.17.2007
office blogs
See.. again it happens: One of many super stressful days at the office with so much work to do, and what do I do? OF COURSE, email Aggie mindless ramblings that go something like:
From: Jamlen
Sent: Wednesday, October 17, 2007 10:19 AM
To: Agatha
Subject: RE:
From: Jamlen
Sent: Wednesday, October 17, 2007 11:46 AM
To: Agatha
From: Jamlen
Sent: Wednesday, October 17, 2007 11:56 AM
To: Agatha
Subject: RE:
From: Jamlen
Sent: Tuesday, October 16, 2007 3:16 PM
To: Agatha
OMG! I am CRAVING something sweet. Preferrably cold glass of chocolate
milk or frozen yogurt. I'll even do pinkberry! Or cheesecake w/ fruit on top!! Oh yuuum!! I want cheesecake now. Oh oh oh.. I forgot.. I had cheesecake last night! *gasp!* I completely overlooked that one after the bangers n mash -- see I was in denial with how "bad" I ate last night that I completely blocked part of my memory lol.
From: Jamlen
Sent: Wednesday, October 17, 2007 10:19 AM
To: Agatha
Subject: RE:
I am now getting the feeling of overwhelm.
I am overwhelmed.
An hour later...From: Jamlen
Sent: Wednesday, October 17, 2007 11:46 AM
To: Agatha
Lots to do and not enough brain capacity or motivation.
Its soooo gloomy out and joaquin just said I looked skinny -- I don't want that. I want kinda like what you have -- small waist and a butt!! Lol but with my body type, if I work on the waist, my butt goes bye bye =( I want j.lo's body lol.
So anyway, my point is, since its so gloomy and I'm "skinny", can't I have pasta for lunch?? hehehehe
10 minutes later...From: Jamlen
Sent: Wednesday, October 17, 2007 11:56 AM
To: Agatha
Subject: RE:
So… does this mean I can have pasta? Heheh
Ok ok.. You are my conscience.. So pick one for me:
1) get a new shirt for work in the mall and eat a small turkey sandwich (no cheese)
2) no new shirt/ no mall and eat fettucine alfredo pasta
From: Jamlen
Sent: Tuesday, October 16, 2007 3:16 PM
To: Agatha
OMG! I am CRAVING something sweet. Preferrably cold glass of chocolate
milk or frozen yogurt. I'll even do pinkberry! Or cheesecake w/ fruit on top!! Oh yuuum!! I want cheesecake now. Oh oh oh.. I forgot.. I had cheesecake last night! *gasp!* I completely overlooked that one after the bangers n mash -- see I was in denial with how "bad" I ate last night that I completely blocked part of my memory lol.
10.14.2007
20 days left
1. Pasalubongs (presents) - check
2. Maletas (luggage) - check
... ok now you've picked up some tagalog words ...
3. Tickets - check
4. Passport - check
What's left?
1. Personal items/clothes
2. One more Costco trip for brownies and centrum
3. Locks?
4. Completion of maleta name/address tags
5. Figure out pasalubong payment to Kuya Charlton
6. 20 days left
7. Valium/Benadryl for Joaquin
Lazy Sunday morning in bed - Yummy
Breakfast in bed - Yummier!
Diet update: Been doing awesome! I'm back to buying shirts in a size S! As my sister would say, "S is for Sexy".. lol, let me stop. S is for Small. yay! the portion control + salads + gym = success! Finally, Dagnamit!! Switched the burger/heavy creamy pasta for a grilled salmon sandwich on toasted whole wheat w/ arugula and cucumbers. Cereal w/ skim milk every weekday morning. Coffee w/ skim milk & no sugar. Salad w/ balsamic vinegar (none of that ranch/blue cheese/ceasar stuff). Mixed nuts for snacks. Large orange juice instead of a chocolate croissant (THAT was a hard decision). Half a big bowl of my usual bowl of san cocho. No cheese on sandwiches. Grilled chicken snack wrap w/ honey mustard and low fat chocolate milk from McD's. Muscle Milk after every gym workout. Sorry you had to read my entire menu, but it makes me feel better writing this down so it's a testament to my actual efforts.
All I want to do is read my books. Geek.
Happy (advanced) Birthday to me! I want to buy my bday gift to myself already! I'm just patiently waiting...
Sacrifice - not getting a manicure in order to save $$.
Indulge - getting a dress for my bday once I'm in the Philippine resort of Boracay. Wanna see where I'll be on my bday?? click here!!
Happy Birthday Wendy (Oct 15) & Zaida (Oct 14)!
2. Maletas (luggage) - check
... ok now you've picked up some tagalog words ...
3. Tickets - check
4. Passport - check
What's left?
1. Personal items/clothes
2. One more Costco trip for brownies and centrum
3. Locks?
4. Completion of maleta name/address tags
5. Figure out pasalubong payment to Kuya Charlton
6. 20 days left
7. Valium/Benadryl for Joaquin
Lazy Sunday morning in bed - Yummy
Breakfast in bed - Yummier!
Diet update: Been doing awesome! I'm back to buying shirts in a size S! As my sister would say, "S is for Sexy".. lol, let me stop. S is for Small. yay! the portion control + salads + gym = success! Finally, Dagnamit!! Switched the burger/heavy creamy pasta for a grilled salmon sandwich on toasted whole wheat w/ arugula and cucumbers. Cereal w/ skim milk every weekday morning. Coffee w/ skim milk & no sugar. Salad w/ balsamic vinegar (none of that ranch/blue cheese/ceasar stuff). Mixed nuts for snacks. Large orange juice instead of a chocolate croissant (THAT was a hard decision). Half a big bowl of my usual bowl of san cocho. No cheese on sandwiches. Grilled chicken snack wrap w/ honey mustard and low fat chocolate milk from McD's. Muscle Milk after every gym workout. Sorry you had to read my entire menu, but it makes me feel better writing this down so it's a testament to my actual efforts.
All I want to do is read my books. Geek.
Happy (advanced) Birthday to me! I want to buy my bday gift to myself already! I'm just patiently waiting...
Sacrifice - not getting a manicure in order to save $$.
Indulge - getting a dress for my bday once I'm in the Philippine resort of Boracay. Wanna see where I'll be on my bday?? click here!!
Happy Birthday Wendy (Oct 15) & Zaida (Oct 14)!
10.06.2007
& this is my Master Card entry...
Cask & Cream Chocolate Temptation... $15
OJ... $3
6 oz. Vodka... $8
Dancing our hearts out in our underwear to Madonna... Priceless
I didn't know something you could do in private can be shared w/ someone who dances as crazy as you (behind closed doors of course, lol). I think we opened up our own club that night xP
OJ... $3
6 oz. Vodka... $8
Dancing our hearts out in our underwear to Madonna... Priceless
I didn't know something you could do in private can be shared w/ someone who dances as crazy as you (behind closed doors of course, lol). I think we opened up our own club that night xP