180 degree post

What else can go wrong!? (wait, maybe I shouldn't ask that question)

It feels like the stars are all dis-aligned for me. I get this really serious blister from playing bball last weekend. I can't wear shoes or function properly b/c I'm so overly dramatic about all injuries I get. I get a cramp on my neck muscle which is still linering. I fall going up the stairs (in public with the morning rush hour audience) not too long ago. Today, I get squished between the train doors b/c I almost missed my stop. So I'm waiting for the conductor to notice a knee and a bag sticking out from one of his doors, trying not to remember I have an audience while I silently fight w/ the train door, and pray the train won't start moving with me in that awkward and slightly painful position (these conductors are trained to see these things, right?). What seemed like minutes, the door opens a little to let me squirm out of there to catch my next train. *Sigh* I look down at my hands and they are slightly bruised from the train door incident and I have a weird pain in my thigh - from holding the door. Then I take a look at my american express current statement and I realized I spent over $500 than I anticipated. WTF.

All these physical misfortunes is not what bugs me. Its all this internal simmering going on inside my head. I had discussions here and there about this and that, but I'm still a bit unsettled. Borderline pessimistic in some areas, and slightly anxious in other areas. I need to learn how to meditate. Seriously. Remove all the crap bubbling and simmering in my head. It's all crap anyway. Time to take out the garbage.

But like most blogs that I bitch in, don't be mistaken: Life is Good. I have me, my health, my faith, family, and friends, food, shelter, clothes, a job, a life! Its just that I also have these hormones and a brain that forces me to over-think and re-think, analyze, so this is a venue where I can bitch about all that good stuff :)

In the end, I take care of myself, I worry about myself, and I have to DO ME. Life doesn't pause for anyone. So you have to think how to make the best of it. Even if that means going through the pains of figuring that one out.

There are certain things I want or wish I had in life (I'm a control freak, can't help it), but we just don't get everything. I'm still having a hard time w/ that idea. WHY CAN'T I HAVE EVERYTHING!?!? (lol - ok, pls don't take that comment seriously. I was having fun with the idea). Anyway, like I said: I'm still have a hard time dealing with that idea. :P

Some comments I came across an article worth posting:
"So my advice is, don’t choose your job over your life…do your job, and do it well, but remember it’s a job. Focus on living and loving well. Your career is just one slice of the big picture pie."

"My wife and I took a cumulative year off over 5 years at mid-career for foreign travel. We were broke for a long time but never regretted it."

LIVE LIFE & LOVE LIFE.
Take out the 2 repeating words in that statement and you get "LIVE & LOVE". Loving IS also Living. You could love a person (people), love your pet, love to travel, love your job, love your ideas, love what is there and what is not there...

I'm truly crazy. I switched up the whole mood and tone of this post. Ay ay ay. Whatever. What a whack-job of a post.