I don't know what I'm doing. I know - I'm stressing out a little. A lot. They say the hardest part of grad school is getting in. Now that I'm in, why do I feel like there are more 'hard parts'. I have to take a Quantitative Assessment Exam AFTER I just went through the whole GMAT ordeal. I don't know what is freaking me out more: failure of passing (1st try, 2nd try, 3rd try) or committing myself to deja vu (GMAT-type studying and commitment again!?!?)!
People like to hide their insecurities or just be in total denial. Not me, not anymore. My insecurities are out there for the world to read: Failure. Having to re-take the assessment exam. Re-living the GMAT experience through this assessment exam (oh wait, that's not an insecurity, that's a fear). If I'm freaking out about this tiny thing now, how can I possibly be built for grad school. Being some type of leader in my core group. Contributing ideas, good ideas. Presentations/public speaking! "Tell us something interesting about yourself"....
uhh... Jamlen is James + Helen combined? I can pop my hip out of place?
WOOW. I'm so boring! Boring and Uninteresting. Add that to my list of insecurities lol.
On a funny note: don't ever ask your significant other about what is interesting about yourself, or else the conversation will go like this:
Me: Babe, what's interesting about me?
Him: your ass [as he is playing a first-person shooting game].
Me: NO!! I can't say that to my classmates!
Him: your lips [still playing the game].
Me: not desirable to you! Interesting!
Him: oh. I dunno. Your quirky-ness.
Great. I can see it now: "Hi, my name is Jamlen. An interesting fact about me is that I'm quirky." End of statement. Silence. Confused looks. Great.
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