Warning:

I'm back to school. 

Holy shitballs it's back to long days, stressful thoughts, weekends - oh wait, what weekends. Do you know how much discipline I require just to pay attention to the professor? I'm so distracted, and usually over dumb shit, or something perverted - no, not with the professor.

I apologize in advance to those who feel the wrath of my crankiness, bitchiness, and confusion (i.e. I might ask you to explain something to me 3x and I will still not get it and probably won't ask for a 4th explanation until next week or something).

Sometimes, I feel like bursting out in tears like a 2 yr old experiencing a tantrum. But, I come back to reality...

Janet Jackson said it first

"I get so lonely..."

Today, I felt lonely. There, I said it.

It's like those days when I just want to say "I hate today". I'm alive, healthy, and loved so I feel there's a small amount of guilt that comes along with saying I'm lonely or I hate today. However, I know it's perfectly fine to feel those things and not fear God will shake His head in disapproval. I love that I'm blessed with so much but I think it's OK to say you hate certain days for the way it makes you feel or for the fact you let it make you feel a certain way. And, and, and.. it's perfectly fine to feel a certain way and not always have to have a solution.  Just. Feel.

So, yeah, I hate today, er, I mean I'm feeling lonely.